EK ADHURE PYAR KO PATRA (LETTER) PART -1/3
Story By. RAVI RAJ UMRAO
MY DEAR ***** (MY LOVE)
Hope that ki aap khush hoge main aapko apni dil ki kuch bate batana chahta tha aur abhi kuch bate is letter ke dwara aapko bata raha hu……. Aap please dhyan dena…
(PART- 1 )
Jis tarike se maine aapka behave dekha hai mujhe to lagta nahi hai ki aap mera ye msg ya koi aur msg pura padhoge. Phir bhi mujhe hak to nahi hai main aapse request karunga ki meri bato par dhyan dena.
Main aapse bate to bahut karna chahta tha magar kar bhi to nahi sakta hu kyoki aapne to mujh se dosti ka bhi rista rakhna nahi chaha hai........
Ab tak aapko meri bahut sari bate pata chal gayi hogi ki maine kya kiya aur kya nahi kiya aur kyo kiya.... Meri mummy ne mujhe haa kaha aur majburi me phir maine unhe na keh diya aur ab bhugat raha hu.....
Mana ki maine galat kiya magar aapne kabhi iska karan jan ne ki koshish nahi ki ki aakhir maine aisa kyo kiya.
Main aaplogo ko achche se janta hu... Maine aapko aajtak galat nahi kaha hai aur na hi kabhi kahunga. Aap jo bhi karoge apni khushi ke liye hi karoge aur main bhi abhi jo aapke liye kar raha hu wo aapki khushi ke liye hi kar raha hu kyoki ye mera wada tha aur shayad ab aap bhi yahi chahte ho.
Main aapko achche se janta hu ki aap kya karte ho.. Kaise karte ho... Aap kya ho... Aapka kis ke sath kaisa relation hai.. Etc. Mujhe aapki almost bahut sari bate pata hai magar maine aajtak aapko kisi chij ke liye thoka nahi tha. Magar jab mujhe aapki aadat aisi lagne lagi ki ye problem create kar sakti hai to maine pehli bar aapko toka aur natija ye hua ki wo aakhiri bar ka tokna ho gaya. Mujhe aapka yahi behave dekh kar achcha nahi laga. Maine aapko kabhi kisi chij ke liye mana nahi kiya ki aap aisa kyo karte ho waisa kyo karte ho chahe wo sahi ho ya galat. Aapko aapke school me bhi kai ladko ne purpose kiya aap un se kaise pesh aati ho mujhe ye sab pata hai magar aapko maine kuch nahi bola.
Rahi ghar aane jane ki bat to main manta hu ki us se sabko problem hoti thi magar meri bhi majburi thi ki main aapke karib rehkar aapko jan na chahta tha. Mujhe bilkul bhi bura nahi lagta agar aaplog jo bat ghar aane ke bare me mujhe kehte the wahi bate agagr c***c**l ko kahi jati to mujhe katai buri nahi lagti jabki wo to din rat (jaise kai bar 2-3 dino tak) continue reh jaya karta tha. Magar use kisi ne kuch nahi kaha albatta uske samne mujhe kya kaha gaya aur mere sath kaisa behave kiya gaya ye to aap achche se jante ho. Ispar to kisi ko bhi bura lag sakta hai na. Maine aapko pehle bhi bataya tha ki aapke gharwalo ke liye mere man me kya vichar hain. Unka bhi behave mere sath kaisa rehne laga tha ye to aap jante hi ho phir bhi maine kisi ko kabhi kuch nahi kaha magar aap bhi jab aisa karne lage to mujhe bura lagna to jayaz tha na.
Aap kabhi puri bato ko dhyan se sochna phir aapko pata lag jayega ki kaun kaha par galat tha. Main bhi galat hu magar janbhujhkar galti ki thi magar iska matlab ye to bilkul nahi hua na ki sirf main hi galat hu aur koi nahi. Aapko to pata hi hoga ki pyar ke riste me vishwas ki kitni jarurat hoti hai. Waise bhi vishwas ke bina to har rista adhura hota hai. Maine to aapse yahi ummid ki thi ki jab main aapko sari bate batata hu to aapko bhi apni sari bate mujhe batani chahiye na. Jaha par logo ko mujh par hi bharosha nahi raha waha un logo ko meri mummy par kaise bharosha hota. Aur jaha tak meri mummy ka sawal hai unhone mujhe kya kaha tha aur ab maine unhe kya kaha ye to aapko pata lag hi gaya hoga. Jis riste me ek bar khtash aa jati hai dubara us riste ko jorne ka man nahi karta hai kyoki wo khatash zindagi me kabhi mit ti nahi hai aur hamesha hame hamare atit ke bare me yad dilati rehti hai. Aaplog agar mujh se bad me kisi bhi karan se agar rista nahi rakhna chahte the to is riste ko ek tarike se ant kar sakte the aur jo dosti ka rista tha ya jo phir purana relation tha kam se kam uska khyal to rakha hi ja sakta tha.
Chalo mana ki aaplogo ko bad me mujh se pareshani hone lagi thi magar uska karan bhi to akele main hi nahi tha na. Aapne aakhiri bar mujh se jab phone par bat ki thi aapko to shayad yaad bhi nahi hoga ki aapne us din mujhe kya kya kaha tha lekin phir bhi maine aapse mafi mangta raha tha aur uska bhi aapke upar koi asar nahi hua. Aap un aakhiri bato ko bhul sakte ho magar wo bate aaj bhi mere kano me gunj rahi hai aur main zindagi bhar un bato ko kabhi nahi bhul paunga. Unhi bato ko dhyan me rakhkar maine kuch faisla liya tha taki aap hamesha khush reh sako.
Main chahta to in tamam bato ko tabhi ke tabhi khtam kar sakta tha magar mujhe aapke aur aapke gharwalo ke bato se laga ki aapke aur unke man me ab koi aur bus gaya hai isiliye mujhe majburi me na chahte huye bhi aapki khushi ke liye aapki zindagi se dur hona para aur jab ab kuch time tak aapka kuch response ya safayi nahi aayi to mujhe laga ki shayad mera sochna sahi tha ki aapke man me koi aur bus gaya hai kyoki aapse mujhe aisi ummid bilkul bhi nahi thi ki aap bhi aisa karoge halaki aapke ghar walo se aisi ummid jarur thi. Mujhe in bato ka aisa sadma laga ki mera career chaupat hone ke kagar par pahuch chuka hai aur abhi main use bachane ki nakam koshish kar raha hu. Aapke man me bhi koi bat hai to aap reply kar sakte ho. Bus aap khush rehna meri yahi dua hai. Zindagi to utar chadhaw hai.
Rahi ghar aane jane ki bat to main manta hu ki us se sabko problem hoti thi magar meri bhi majburi thi ki main aapke karib rehkar aapko jan na chahta tha. Mujhe bilkul bhi bura nahi lagta agar aaplog jo bat ghar aane ke bare me mujhe kehte the wahi bate agagr c***c**l ko kahi jati to mujhe katai buri nahi lagti jabki wo to din rat (jaise kai bar 2-3 dino tak) continue reh jaya karta tha. Magar use kisi ne kuch nahi kaha albatta uske samne mujhe kya kaha gaya aur mere sath kaisa behave kiya gaya ye to aap achche se jante ho. Ispar to kisi ko bhi bura lag sakta hai na. Maine aapko pehle bhi bataya tha ki aapke gharwalo ke liye mere man me kya vichar hain. Unka bhi behave mere sath kaisa rehne laga tha ye to aap jante hi ho phir bhi maine kisi ko kabhi kuch nahi kaha magar aap bhi jab aisa karne lage to mujhe bura lagna to jayaz tha na.
Aap kabhi puri bato ko dhyan se sochna phir aapko pata lag jayega ki kaun kaha par galat tha. Main bhi galat hu magar janbhujhkar galti ki thi magar iska matlab ye to bilkul nahi hua na ki sirf main hi galat hu aur koi nahi. Aapko to pata hi hoga ki pyar ke riste me vishwas ki kitni jarurat hoti hai. Waise bhi vishwas ke bina to har rista adhura hota hai. Maine to aapse yahi ummid ki thi ki jab main aapko sari bate batata hu to aapko bhi apni sari bate mujhe batani chahiye na. Jaha par logo ko mujh par hi bharosha nahi raha waha un logo ko meri mummy par kaise bharosha hota. Aur jaha tak meri mummy ka sawal hai unhone mujhe kya kaha tha aur ab maine unhe kya kaha ye to aapko pata lag hi gaya hoga. Jis riste me ek bar khtash aa jati hai dubara us riste ko jorne ka man nahi karta hai kyoki wo khatash zindagi me kabhi mit ti nahi hai aur hamesha hame hamare atit ke bare me yad dilati rehti hai. Aaplog agar mujh se bad me kisi bhi karan se agar rista nahi rakhna chahte the to is riste ko ek tarike se ant kar sakte the aur jo dosti ka rista tha ya jo phir purana relation tha kam se kam uska khyal to rakha hi ja sakta tha.
Chalo mana ki aaplogo ko bad me mujh se pareshani hone lagi thi magar uska karan bhi to akele main hi nahi tha na. Aapne aakhiri bar mujh se jab phone par bat ki thi aapko to shayad yaad bhi nahi hoga ki aapne us din mujhe kya kya kaha tha lekin phir bhi maine aapse mafi mangta raha tha aur uska bhi aapke upar koi asar nahi hua. Aap un aakhiri bato ko bhul sakte ho magar wo bate aaj bhi mere kano me gunj rahi hai aur main zindagi bhar un bato ko kabhi nahi bhul paunga. Unhi bato ko dhyan me rakhkar maine kuch faisla liya tha taki aap hamesha khush reh sako.
Main chahta to in tamam bato ko tabhi ke tabhi khtam kar sakta tha magar mujhe aapke aur aapke gharwalo ke bato se laga ki aapke aur unke man me ab koi aur bus gaya hai isiliye mujhe majburi me na chahte huye bhi aapki khushi ke liye aapki zindagi se dur hona para aur jab ab kuch time tak aapka kuch response ya safayi nahi aayi to mujhe laga ki shayad mera sochna sahi tha ki aapke man me koi aur bus gaya hai kyoki aapse mujhe aisi ummid bilkul bhi nahi thi ki aap bhi aisa karoge halaki aapke ghar walo se aisi ummid jarur thi. Mujhe in bato ka aisa sadma laga ki mera career chaupat hone ke kagar par pahuch chuka hai aur abhi main use bachane ki nakam koshish kar raha hu. Aapke man me bhi koi bat hai to aap reply kar sakte ho. Bus aap khush rehna meri yahi dua hai. Zindagi to utar chadhaw hai.
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